“I’d like to hear a good explanation to why you’re out here by yourself” Isaac said and put both of his hands in his pockets. His cigarette was smoked out and we had been walking in silence for several minutes.
“I bet you would” I said and focused on walking as fast as possible.
The silence fell over us again, with the only sound coming from our feet hitting the ground as we walked.
Suddenly something changed. There was this feeling around me, a feeling of peace and safety. It wasn’t due to Isaac. He made me feel weak and scared, nothing like this feeling that was now filling me up. It was a comfortable feeling, not scary or something like that. The feeling can most easily be explained by when all your worries disappear as someone puts their arm around you and make you feel safe. You feel calm and peaceful because you know that everything will be okay as long as that person is beside you.
“Is it only me or did it just get warmer?” I said in confusion as I felt my body getting warmer very suddenly. The strange thing was that I couldn’t quite figure out the source from where the warmth came from.
“What?” Isaac responded and stopped to look at me, from my toes to my head. It wasn’t a nice feeling when someone practically scans you fro top to toe.
Suddenly he began grinning and turned around to walk away.
“My work here is done!” he shouted behind him as he began walking away whistling.
I just stared after him. Was he stoned? He had to be taking something because this behavior wasn’t normal. The fact that he had found me here was also a bit strange, who was walking alone this late at night in the park? Besides me of course, but I had a reason to. Isaac seemed to just be walking around town not doing something special. If he was doing something special, then why would he first walk with me and then just walk away? And what about my work here is done? That sentence made no sense to me. He was either a stoned weirdo or just a weirdo.
I was so caught up in all of this confusion about Isaac that I almost forgot about what had actually happened just seconds before he had turned around and walked away. Something had happened and I was determined that Isaac new about it but just didn’t want to show me that he did. The answers I had searched for were now further away than ever. Instead of answers I had gained more questions.
“What were you doing in town for so long?” Cole asked when we were sitting in the car on our way home.
“I had some things to think about, so I just walked for a few hours” I answered and turned up the radio a bit to signalize I didn’t want to talk.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“Not really”
“You know you can talk to me”
“I know” I smiled towards him and turned instead off the radio completely. “It’s nothing really” I continued.
Cole didn’t answer but responded in a warmly smile instead. We sat there in silence for a few minutes and it gave me again time to think about everything.
Maybe I was overreacting. It could be my imagination and daydreaming taking over; telling me there’s more to it than there really is. If I continue digging into this without finding anything I will not only waste my time but also prove myself crazy. The important question is if this all is worth it. Mysteries are thrilling, but will it be worth risking my own saneness in order to experience something different?
I was in my room about to change to my pajamas when someone knocked on my door.
“Hey Soph, can I come in?” it was Catherine outside.
“Sure” I shouted loud enough for her to hear me before I went to sit on my bed.
“Hey sweetheart, I hope I’m not interrupting” she said with a small smile and carefully went into my room to sit beside me on the bed.
I responded with a smile and waited for her to continue.
“Your mother called earlier, she was wondering why you hadn’t called back” Catherine began and looked right at me. I couldn’t see any sign of emotion in her eyes, so this was either a very casual talk or a very, very emotional one. Catherine doesn’t show when there is something big going one; she tries to assure everyone that it’s never a big deal. Whatever it is.
“Shoot I totally forgot to call her” I could’ve slapped myself for not remembering it. How could I forget about calling my own mother?
“No worries” she smiled quickly before continuing. “She is coming here this weekend” Catherine said and tried to smile encouragingly.
“Oh”
“I know”
“Why is she coming?” I asked and looked down at my hands.
“She has something to tell you. She and your father” Catherine looked down too and didn’t meet my eyes even when I tried to make eye contact with her.
“Do you know what it is?” I asked after a while.
“Yes”
“Will you tell me now?”
“No”
I sighed.
“Why?” I almost yelled it, but not on purpose.
“Because it’s not my thing to tell” she smiled, but I could see it was hard for her.
“Does Cole know what it is?” I asked.
“No”
“Will he find out at the same time as me?”
“Yes”
“Will what they have to say affect me in any way?” I said it slowly like I was afraid of the answer she might give me.
My mother isn’t the easiest person to live with; she’s a drama queen who loves being in the center of everything all the time. I had promised myself not to get caught in the middle of all of her drama, not get to know any of the many men she had over while I was there. She had her way of living and I had mine, she might be my mother but I was not going to follow her example by living that way. And if this were some sort of plan of hers to get me involved in her drama, I wouldn’t give in without a fight. I was going to make that very clear from the beginning.
“It depends” Catherine sighed and stood up, making it clear that our talk was over.
“Why does secrets even exist? It’s like they’re created to make people feel bad! All they do is create a big step between those who knows and those who don’t know, and I belong to the last group mentioned! Always! Why is it so hard to be honest and open?!” I was standing up and shouting louder than I’d intended to.
“Soph.-“
“I’m not mad at you or anyone else” I said and closed my eyes to calm down. “Can you just… Can you please leave?” I asked.
Catherine didn’t move. I could tell she was a bit angry with me, she hated when someone was yelling and making a scene.
“Fine, then I’ll leave” I said and grabbed a bag, threw down my pajamas and a toothbrush before walking out of my bedroom.
I walked quickly down the stairs as I texted Olivia to tell her I was coming to sleep at her place tonight. Having a sleepover at my best friend’s house would probably make me feel better. We would probably end up talking all night instead of sleeping, but I honestly wouldn’t mind.
When I got down the stairs I could see Cole and Noah in the kitchen together with my dad. Apparently Noah and Cole had some physics project to work on, which Cole had forgotten about. He isn’t the brightest kid in class so to speak.
I went to the wardrobe to grab my jacket and put on a pair of shoes before leaving, and Cole and Noah was beside me in less than five seconds.
“Where are you going?” Cole asked.
“Olivia’s. Don’t tell Catherine or dad, it will be good for them to be a bit worried” I said and grinned.
“Why are you so badass all of a sudden?” Cole said and laughed.
I blinked with my left eye, which made Cole laugh even harder. However, Noah’s mouth didn’t move from the straight the line that is lips where in. Did he have any humor at all? God.
“Cole! I found the bottle that you need!” dad called from the kitchen and Cole went there straight away.
“See you at school” he said quickly before leaving.
Noah remained by my side and watched me carefully, which made me feel insecure and unsure of myself. Again.
“Uhm” I began to try to make him understand that he should join Cole.
“See you tomorrow” Noah said and looked right into my eyes before leaving for the kitchen.
Äntligen va? Här är kapitel 7, även detta lite längre. Som ni såg innan så gjorde jag ett inlägg (även en kategori som ni finner längst upp ovanför headern eller till höger i menyn) där jag lagt in bilder samt en väldigt liten beskrivning av betydelsefulla karaktärer. Fler karaktärer kommer läggas till efter hand, detta eftersom jag inte vill spoila någonting för er! Hoppas ni gillade kapitelt i alla fall, berätta gärna vad ni tyckte! Kraaam
